Osho/Bhagwan/Rajneeshpuram Reflections

The Osho Neo-Sannays Movement was an interesting and amazing worldwide phenomenon!
Below are many controversial topics showing the Dark Side (check out also neosannyasilluminatingthedarkside)
Osho endorses actual MurderAntelope Broken 1982 AgreementRajneeshpuram Murder PlotsRajesh-DayWeGotGunsSheelaInstructedByOshoSheela confronting Osho  
OshoJokesKillingJewsHolySmoke  ● Osho Black Magic Paranoia ● J KrishnamurtiOshoCriminal ● Osho Narcissistic/Entitlement ● Oshos Death Natual/Murder?  
NOTHING to Learn/Betrayals ● DropingAllConcepts"Wild Wild Country" Documentary 

Beautiful & Light Side of the Osho Neo-Sannyas Movement
I (SwMadhur) am very grateful for the amazing adventure and meeting so many adventurous souls and friends and the beautiful side of the Neo-Sannyas Movement:
Poona1 Tao Golden Gate Discource ● RebelliousFlowerMoviePoona1 Music GroupVipassana MeditationSannyasWikiDatabase 
FreeOshoDownloads  ● Exoteric/Esoteric Group Dynamic     

Wiki: Rajneesh Movement Osho/Rajneesh  
Netflix: "Wild Wild Country" Documentary IMDB 
57 Answers to Questions About Rajneeshpuram from a Teenage Resident PDF  Bhagwan’s Sexism PDF 
Osho endorses actual Murder   from the famous "Hitler Tape" Aug 15, 1985 Rajneeshpuram FBI Wiki Source   Murder Plots Details
Osho/Bhagwan confirmed "it is going to be necessary to kill some [Oregon] people[Charles Turner etc]  and killing was NOT such a bad thing!
in a reply to objections from disciples who had a problem killing people - from a sworn FBI testemony of Ava Avalos - Page 52 - full PDF here 
also mentioning "Hitler was a great man with vision" 

Several Murder Plots were also planned (May 1985) Ed Comini in Dallas, OR:

Murder Plots Details
Osho jokes about One Million Jews peaceful evaporating in holy Smoke towards God 
Listen Here (Osho_HitlerGhandi_19850815Love.mp3)     
"Hitler/Ghandi Full Discource" Aug 16, 1985 Rajneeshpuram - from "Death to Deathlessness"
27:20 "In fact, Adolf Hitler’s violence with the Jews was far more peaceful, because he killed people in the most up-to-date gas chambers, where you don’t take much time.
Thousands of people can be put in a gas chamber, and just a switch is pressed. Within a second you will not know when you were alive and when you died. 
Within a second, you evaporate. The chimneys of the factory start taking you, the smoke - you can call it the holy smoke - and 
this seems to be a direct way towards God. The smoke simply goes upwards.
37:30 "And if Adolf Hitler burned one million Jews in a very scientific, peaceful way - NOBODY WAS TORTURED - what is the difference between these people?" 
47:40 "I have said I have a certain love for Adolf Hitler, for the simple reason that at least he was straightforward; Gandhi was not. Adolf Hitler was not cunning. 
Whatever he wanted to do he did. He was a LITTLE crazy, but a crazy man managed to be the world’s greatest conqueror. He had some integrity, some insight. 
Germany is a small country, but he managed to threaten the whole world. And he was not a hypocrite. That’s why I have said I love the man."  
Rajneeshpuram Murder Plots
Many More details in Les Zaitz The Oregonian Apr 2011  Detailed Research in Rajneeshees in Oregon 
Part5 Rajneeshees’ Utopian Dreams Collapse as Talks Turn to Murder:
Ma Anand Sheela's gaze swept over the commune leaders seated on the floor before her. She was in an especially dark mood.
"Are you people cowards or are you sannyasins of Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh?" she asked.
The day before, a jury shocked the commune by awarding $1.7 million to a former Rajneeshee for an unpaid loan. The judgment was part of ever-worsening developments for the eastern Oregon compound.
Sheela said the verdict showed the Rajneeshees couldn't count on fair treatment from U.S. courts or anyone else. The commune's enemies had to be stopped, she said.
They had to be killed.
That night, Sheela was an exhausted and nearly defeated woman. For four years, she had done the bidding of Rajneesh, an Indian guru who pressed Sheela to build him an international commune. Sheela chose to do that on a 64,000-acre ranch an hour's drive north of Madras. 
Many of those seated before her had helped. The mix this May night in 1985 included the presidents of the commune, its investment corporation and its medical operation. The mayor of the sect's city was there, as were a handful of operatives who had secretly executed most of Sheela's plots.
After Sheela spoke, another leader gave what amounted to a pep talk, supporting Sheela's startling call to action.
One woman raised her hand. "I can't kill anybody, but I support you if you do it." Two men protested that the idea of murder was insane. They were browbeaten as cowards.
Others, startled by Sheela's proposal, kept their qualms to themselves because of growing mistrust among the insiders. The meeting proceeded to identifying enemies for a growing hit list. So far, outrageous acts hadn't helped the Rajneeshee cause. The secret squads poisoned several hundred people in The Dalles. They set fire to the county planning office. They exploited homeless people, costing Oregon taxpayers $100,000 in bus fare to return them to their cities of origin.
Murder didn't make much sense, either, but the judgment of the leaders was crippled by exhaustion, isolation and their unwavering faith in the guru.
More meetings followed the extraordinary session in Sheela's bedroom, the scene for much of her plotting. She went to the guru for help stiffening the resolve of those participating. She returned with a tape of her conversation. Although the quality was poor, the commune insiders heard Rajneesh say that if 10,000 had to die to save one enlightened master, so be it. Their top target was Charles Turner, the U.S. attorney for Oregon. His prosecutors were investigating immigration fraud at the commune. A federal mediator disclosed to the Rajneeshees that criminal charges were likely and might include the guru himself. He also disclosed that Sheela probably would be charged.
Sheela thought killing Turner would somehow derail the investigation. 
A plan evolved to gun him down on his way home. One of the assassins traveled the country with another sannyasin, buying pistols that couldn't be traced. Others set up a safe house in Portland, which became the base for scouting Turner's home. On one occasion, two assassins sat in a McDonald's in Downtown Portland across from Turner's office, sipping coffee and monitoring his movements. They considered gunning him down in a parking garage but couldn't figure an easy way to escape.
Dave Frohnmayer, the state attorney general, was targeted as well.
To determine with certainty where he lived, one Rajneeshee posed as a Bible salesman to reach his front door. Others staked out Frohnmayer's office in Salem.
A team of three went to Portland to kill James Comini as he lay in St. Vincent Hospital, recovering from ear surgery
As a Wasco County commissioner, Comini had been critical of the Rajneeshees, and he kept up his criticism after leaving office.

There was danger for enemies on the ranch as well. Much of the planning focused on killing two of the guru's personal staff: his doctor, Swami Devaraj, and his caretaker, Ma Yoga Vivek. Sheela convinced the others that the two were a threat to the guru. As proof, she played a secretly recorded conversation in which the doctor agreed to obtain drugs the guru wanted to ensure a peaceful death if he decided to take his own life. The assignment to kill Vivek went to Ma Anand Ava and Ma Anand Su, president of the sect's investment firm and also known as Susan Hagan. The two set out late one night to catch Vivek in her room. They carried an ether-soaked rag to render her unconscious. In anticipation, Su trimmed her fingernails so no flesh would get trapped as evidence if Vivek fought. The plan was for Ava to inject her with a lethal combination of potassium and adrenaline. They never got the chance because they couldn't unlock Vivek's rear door. They had the wrong key.
That was followed by a more elaborate plan to kill Devaraj, a British doctor also known as George Meredith. The attempt came the morning of July 6, 1985, when the commune was thick with sannyasins visiting for the annual world festival. The venue for the attempt was the massive lecture hall at the ranch, pulsing with sannyasins dancing to pounding music.
Devaraj, sitting cross-legged on the floor, considered joining the dancing. Then, a woman named Ma Shanti Bhadra, also known as Jane Elsea, leaned over his shoulder and whispered in his ear. He felt a hot sting in his buttock. She had jabbed him with a miniature syringe concealed by a handkerchief.
He whirled on her. "Oh, so this is what it's come to, has it?" he asked as he got to his feet. Shanti Bhadra walked with the doctor.
"What's wrong? What's wrong?" she asked in feigned surprise. 
Devaraj made it out of the lecture hall and was flown to a Bend hospital. He nearly died from the injection of adrenaline.
The attack was a shock. Up to now, the episodes had seemed like pranks or justified acts of self-defense. But now the Rajneeshees had nearly killed one of their own. The guru himself ordered Shanti Bhadra to be drugged and questioned, an order Sheela ignored.
Ma Yoga Vidya, one of the commune's top executives who was also known as Ann McCarthy, thought other murder plans had been scrubbed when she heard two others discussing the Turner plan. 
Vidya had fought Sheela in private about such plans. Sheela brushed aside her concerns but kept Vidya loyal by threatening to kill her husband.
Now, discovering that murder was still part of the operation, Vidya snapped.  She made her way to Sheela's room, interrupting a meeting.
"It's got to stop. I can't stand this talk of killing anymore. I can't stand it. I can't stand it," Vidya said. She collapsed on the floor, convulsing and crying.
Sheela summoned Shanti Bhadra from an adjoining room, asking her to calm Vidya. Shanti Bhadra was the one who had tried to kill Devaraj, and 
she was assigned to shoot Turner. She snapped when she encountered Vidya.
"I will not be killing anybody," Shanti Bhadra said. "No one will be killing anybody."
The turning point had come, for the commune and for Oregon.
Rajesh - The Day We Got Guns
It is written in a stream of consciousness sort of way, which we found appealing (SannyasNews
The Day We Got Guns - Swami Prem Rajesh  VIHA: Swami Prem Rajesh July 12, 1949 – May 14, 2010
Rajesh Died in the evening of May 14 in a hospice in Richmond, Virginia, surrounded by family and friends. He had been in poor health for many years and had come close to dying a few years ago. A few months before his death he was in a coma for three weeks after a violent asthma attack. His friend Michael (Sharno) wrote: “To be truthful, we all thought he was overdue. There was no reason for it to continue. And no one, particularly he, wanted it to continue. I was with him during his last major attack. It was enough. I’m glad for him that he moved on.” Rajesh took sannyas in Pune One and was later a resident at the Ranch, working in Edison, the electronic department. He was affectionately called White Boy because of his light-blond hair and in reference to the song “Play that Funky Music, White Boy” by Wild Cherry.  
Even through his illness Rajesh stayed in close contact with many sannyasin friends, among them Satya Priya. Here are some excerpts from his emails to her: beloved priya - ah, my dearest, the breath is more scarce,  the moment more precious, the beauty drowns me. the mind tries to fight to explain, but i am free so freed up. no rent no movie no tv show. the world is leaving me. who knows how long the drama will draw out. osho is outside of time just space just space. how silly we’ll always be. i love you so much beloved priya the fear. the fear. i’ve been dancing on the edge of fear all day today. the shortness of breath... when it stays and stays... and even the drugs   don’t resolve it... oh it truly is only about being present. in the presence, i am free. slowly. slowly. slowly must i tread. i feel you, beloved one, in the aether where we are the silence. Love and His Blessings, Rajesh
Rajeesh came clean with the FBI Agents and served 4 Month time in a half way house, instead of 148 YEARS for 
multiple accounts of wire tapings! Showing the Rajneeshpuram climate of "just do it" no matter what and 
by God "DO NOT ASK QUESTOIONS!" contrary to Osho's rebelious stories!
So the results was ignorance and cooperation of the 1000s "happy worker bees" what was really going on, but on some level we all knew it was off, but did not want to get thrown out of the paradise, which them also became hell and disappeared to become a Christian Youth Camp forever ... 
Life certainly has a sense of humor! :-)
When Swami Prem Rajesh died in 2010, they found this unpublished controversial memoir of the Rajneeshpuram period in his things. 

Swami Anand Julian, Ace Spy: http://sannyasnews.org/now/archives/5730 
Apparently, Osho’s room was not only bugged on the Ranch, but even back in Poona as well. 
“You know, Whiteboy, me and Jules…we bugged Bhagwan too. I put a mic inside his wooden alarm button.” “My God…”
He beams, elated, snickering, “Jules said Bhagwan was bugged in Poona too.” “No way”, I say.  “It’s true”.
Parmartha says: 15 December, 2015 at 8:37 pm Someone asked about Julian.
Swami Anand Julian (Julian James) – Charged with five federal counts of wiretap conspiracy; remains a fugitive. http://www.oregonlive.com/rajneesh/index.ssf/federal_prosecutions_of_rajnee.html

Biggest Bio USA Attack  Forensic Files - Season 7, Ep 8: Bio-Attack 
Sheela stops playing Osho's Game Download Video here  
Question "How come Sheela is your spokesperson antagonizing and offending People?" 
Osho: "I hit her hard because I would like her to be really outrageous. She was falling below the Standard. 
I was continuously  telling her - we have anything to loose, but gain the whole world!" 
Sheela "When I could NOT play his Game anymore. I left. When his demand for luxuries went out of hand and when I found out he was pumped with Valium"  
From Movie "Guru: Bhagwan, His Secretary & His Bodyguard"   Trailer 
Facebook Post  
Mark Hunton Even at the beginning of the ranch we got two busses and three of us were the bus drivers. I would leave my bus at Magdalena after the last run and start walking, in pitch black darkness down the road toward my tent. As I would pass the road up to Bhagwan’s house, if Sheila was coming down after meeting with him, her driver would stop and pick me up and they would drive me down the road for the seven minute drive to my place. 
More then one time did she say something like, “I can’t believe what he is asking me to do”, and she seemed a bit rattled. 
I use to think, wow I feel lucky to be a nobody. There was a lot of freedom in always staying under the radar! Lol
Rainer Jila Koll 
There is an often-overlooked aspect to Sheela, beyond the many attributes that are commonly given to her. 
I got to know her personally and closely, looking after her during the Air Rajneesh flights across the U.S. and later in Jesus Grove.
Sheela remained very close to her parents until she left the Ranch. Her father had told her as a teenager that she was destined to be with Bhagwan – on some level akin to an arranged marriage. Of course the relationship became infinitely deeper: Master and Disciple. But worldly and psychological elements remained in Sheela’s relationship with Bhagwan: the father that could not be disappointed intertwined with the desire to surrender to the Master. 
Failure of this relationship brings up the fear of losing love and missing the ‘path to enlightenment’. This mix made Sheela very open to Bhagwan’s demands.
And Bhagwan expected from her to be even more aggressive and provocative than Sheela already was. On return from a talk show or public event, he edged her on to go further. 
At least this is what Sheela told us. It began to take a toll on her quite a while before things on the Ranch reached a climax. 
Occasionally she would regress to an afraid child before a TV appearance, and we would form a circle around her on the hotel bed to pump her up with energy (and pharma at times). She was not scared of the TV but afraid of disappointing Bhagwan. And he[Osho] never held back with expressing his disappointment
As a result, Sheela became afraid of losing access to Bhagwan, the guru that represented her path to enlightenment, and 
afraid of the loss of power and position as his personal secretary. The later I’m not saying to fault her. It is a very normal attachment that I have encountered many times during my later career in corporate life. 
Unless one has been there it is difficult to imagine how the pressure feels in her situation. I’d say most of us would have cracked under similar circumstances
Sheela confronting Osho  Watch here   Download Video here  
Osho/Bhagwan claims: "Sheela has taken over $40 Million" Sheela "Osho does not know how to count money! I left the commune with only $10"  
Sheela : "It is time that you let people know who you [really] are the way I have come to know you - on one hand you are a Genius and a beautiful Man and
on the other hand you really exploit people by using their human frailty and emotions"   
Osho replied "She is drugged. She is on hard drugs." "There is something in my eyes, not drugs. but it can drug you." "Sheela is not a woman but a perfect bitch.
I love bitches, many of them"   
Sheela: " Osho took 60mg Valium. Osho is a SPOILED LITTLE BOY, and has nothing to do with being a holy man." 
Sheela: "We have spent 2.5Millon per Month! nothing is left. we spent $250,000 PER Month just on Osho a pain in the neck. Osho wanted to by an entire truck just to pick up RR"
Sheela: "Osho was not interested in actual Enlightenment" It was a a con [game]"  "If things will be too difficult, Osho will commit suicide by injection" 
Osho: "If you even meet again Osho, Sheela will throw herself at this feet and beg for Mercy"  Sheela " Would he[Osho] wish, Osho is dreaming again, not true Bhagwan!
One thing I have is my Dignity and that was a problem for you. you know it to!" 
Osho "Sheela has NO DIGNITY! ALL DIGNITY WAS GIVEN BY ME! She was just a hotel waitress and I made her almost a queen. I never made love to her.
Perhaps that is the jealousy? She always wanted .. but I have made it a point to never made love to a secretary"
Osho "Look around. You CANNOT find more rejoicing people anywhere - as they hand over their millions. I SELL Contentment and Enlightenment.
Sheela could not get it, because sheela has a very third rate mind."  "Sheela is just more and more insane, before imprisonment. You just wait. 
Either Sheela will kill herself out of the very burden of all the crimes Sheela has done OR Sheela will suffer her whole life in imprisonment"
Other video Part5 "I do the best [being nasty] Job for my Boss[Osho]. Have the LAST word. I was NEVER provocative enough"  Part6  P11  Nirmal    
Maybe somebody can translate from Hindi: Ma Anand Sheela on Skype on Indian TV 
Arrest in Germany Oct 29, 1985: 
Antelope Broken 1982 Agreement   Rajneeshpuram - Fight for a City Town Hall May 1st, 1985 (58Min)   SannyasNews 
Broken Agreement from "held hostage" May 1982 "We NEVER INTEND TO COME TO Antelope now or in the Future!"  You cannot stop a flowing River   
Sheela "YOU need to learn XXX from US"  
Vidya 6Min Savita 12Min LandUse 15Min AntelopeWoman 20Min Ludicrous 24Min VoteBlock100% 27Min  No Intention to go to Antelope 39Min 

Ulli V Steppenwolf:
Another clear memory from 1985's Ranch discourses:  pic 
Referring to being watched now all the times by FBI-agents - may it be openly or under-cover -, 
deep flying jets over Rajneesh Mandir and rumours that the National Guard would be on alert, to 'prevent a 2nd Jonestown' he[Osho] uttered:
"... and if they come, make it clear, that they should come with chains and hand-cuffs ..."
When I later saw the press-photo of his arresting in Charlotte with some gun-carrying Sheriff by his side and his hands chained, I just thought:
'He got What he proposed and wanted !'..... 
Oshos Death Jan 19, 1990
In the book below many actual details are coming to light 
Interview with Author 
Chitten: German sannyasin, now known by his new identity, Santosh Thomas Hoehne. Around 65 years. Played a vital role on the day Osho died. 
Married to Ma Prem Amrita, granddaughter of Gen. K.S. Thimayya. Left the Pune Commune abruptly and re-settled in Almora, Uttarakhand, 
where he runs an organic foods and cosmetics manufacturing company.

Shanti Bhadra reports Brainwashing even commit Murder  
Video: Osho Bhagwan was accused by Shanti Bhadra Jane Stork Jane Stubbs of brainwashing and plotting Murder 
Osho Bhagwan was accused by "Shanti Bhadra" Jane Stork Jane Stubbs of brainwashing 
Willing to commit Murder - see above in her Book "Breaking the Spell: My Life as a Rajneeshee, and the Long Journey Back to Freedom (2009)"    
Stork took part in unsuccessful plots to kill Rajneesh's doctor the the U.S. Attorney for Oregon, Charles H. Turner. 
Trevor Terrence Fletcher
Rajneesh used people, spoke out of both sides of his mouth, and betrayed the trust of his own disciples. This betrayal caused Vivek, his longtime girlfriend and companion, to commit suicide by taking an overdose of sleeping pills. Rajneesh even lied about her death, slandering his greatest love in her grave by falsely claiming that she was chronically depressed due to some intrinsic emotional instability. Vivek was never depressed during the years I knew her, and she was the most radiant women I have ever known. 
Vivek was a glowing student of meditation, but her only meditation method was being with Rajneesh and absorbing his tremendous energy. When her one true love collapsed into insanity, she took her own life out of overwhelming grief. Rajneesh drove her to suicide because she could not understand nor tolerate his mental decline and collapse. Rajneesh lied about her death to avoid taking responsibility for his own bizarre behavior, which was the underlying cause of Vivek's despair.
Osho defends RR  
Osho is lying in this video about his Rolls Royces. He says his people, followers, or “sanyasins” want him to have 360 Rolls Royces. It’s Osho who wants them for himself. When he had his commune in Oregon “Rajneeshpuram”, he pressured his staff to secure more Rolls Royces because he wanted to break the record for how many anyone had. This was costing his commune $200,000 per month. Meanwhile, much of this money was coming from his followers, many of whom sold off all of their worldly possession and donated all of their wealth to Rajneeshpuram. The guru also wanted a million dollar watch to wear, and told his second in command to divert money from the commune’s needs, if necessary, to secure this luxury for himself.

Osho disgusted from Sannyasin[Idiots] Reports and long Letters 
Talks Part12 Priorities: a) Rolls Royce b) Donations c) 
Deeksha & J Krishnamurti  

"During the month I spent working in Zurich I met Deeksha. In her distress she had sought out Krishnamurti, the only person Bhagwan had ever acknowledged as an equal.
Krishnamurti had no time for Bhagwan, and particularly objected to the use of the word Bhagwan; nobody other than God himself should use that title, he said. 
Krishnamurti had told Deeksha: I have received thousands of letters from all over the world asking why I do not speak out in public against this man. 
But I will not, as it is not my way. The man[Osho] is a criminal. You have to understand this very clearly. What he is doing to people in the name of spirituality is criminal. 
One must never give to another human being - and he is simply a human being -
your ultimate manifestation of consciousness, which is your ability to make decisions for yourself. You have made a great mistake in giving him hat power for twelve years, but understand this: no man has power except the power his followers give him. 
That is why he needs people around him all the time, and the more the better.”  

"Krishnamurti would not comment about Rajneesh in public, but privately he made it clear that he considered Rajneesh a criminal and he thought that the time spent with him was really an illusion and wasted time. When Deeksha left Rajneesh she went to see Krishnamurti because she was afraid that Rajneesh could hurt or even kill her from far away because of his great power, to what Krishnamurti said that he had no other power than the one she was giving him and then she asked her: " How many years you have been with this man? " to what she answered "11 years" (I am not sure of this number) and he answered : "you have wasted 11 years of your life" . Of course if you don't like Krishnamurti there is no problem, but if you think he has something to say, then you have to deal with the contradiction
Homeless used to get Votes (Share a Home Program)
Bring People to Rajneeshpuram for the Voting - Right after the election ALL the homeless people were gone   Food Poisoning  
"There was a Strata - the Organizers and Rajneesh Govt and then there were the worker Bees. They were completely in the Dark. You felt the separation Bosses vs Workers.
Suggestions reply: If you don't like this you can leave!" "Sheela was the glue holding Rajneeshpuram together. When she left it collapsed." 
"It was an utopia which ended badly" 

The Narcissistic Guru: A Profile of Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rajneesh - Appraisal_as_charismatic_leader 
Osho Rajneesh and His Disciples: Some Western Perceptions
, Ronald O. Clarke, Emeritus Professor of Religious Studies at Oregon State University, argued that Rajneesh exhibited all the typical features of narcissistic personality disorder
such as a grandiose sense of self-importance and uniqueness; 
a preoccupation with fantasies of unlimited success; 
a need for constant attention and admiration; 
a set of characteristic responses to threats to self-esteem; 
disturbances in interpersonal relationships; 
a preoccupation with personal grooming combined with frequent resorting to prevarication or outright lying; 
and a lack of empathy.[242]
Drawing on Rajneesh's reminiscences of his childhood in his book Glimpses of a Golden Childhood, he suggested that Rajneesh suffered from a fundamental lack of 
parental discipline, due to his growing up in the care of overindulgent grandparents.[242]Rajneesh's self-avowed Buddha status, he concluded, was part of a delusional system associated with his narcissistic personality disorder; a condition of ego-inflation rather than egolessness

Entitlement - spoiled Child  from OSHO: Books I have Loved  
I asked him[father] for money only when I wanted to purchase more books; I never asked money for anything else. And I told him,
"When I ask for money for books you had better give it to me." He said, "What do you mean?" I said, "I simply mean that if you don't give it to me then I will have to steal it. I don't want to be a thief but if you force me then there is no way. You know I don't have money. I need these books and I am going to have them, that you know. So if money is not given to me then I will take it; and remember in your mind that it was you who forced me to steal."
He said, "No need to steal. Whenever you need money you simply come and take it." And I said, "You be assured it is only for the books," but there was no need for the assurance because he went on seeing my library growing in the house. Slowly there was no place in the house for anything other than my books  

Sheela reports:
"On this stormy and rainy day, Bhagwan had not only had a dispute with Vivek, He also had toothache. He was miserable. Moreover, He was desperate to drive.
Because of bad roads and worse weather, He had not been able to drive His cars for a whole week.  I heard of the broken dam early in the morning when I was still asleep.
I was instantly wide awake and began to take stock of the situation. Soon a message came via radio that I should immediately report to Bhagwan. 
I told Vivek that this was impossible
. The water was very high and there was a strong current too. It was a very dangerous creek to cross at that time. 
Even if I were to order a helicopter from Portland, it would not have been able to reach the ranch. And even if it would have, it would have taken several hours 
to complete the journey. Bhagwan had no sympathy for these circumstances. He wanted to see me urgently. 
I joked: “Even if I ride a horse, it would take me two hours . . .”  So He demanded that I come to Him on a horse!
And He was a man who had never been able to take no for an answer.  We had four wild horses. They belonged to the ranch. They were pretty wild and not meant for riding. 
They had not been properly trained. But I mounted myself on one of them. We took the pass over the mountains to get to Bhagwan’s house. It was appalling. 
The horse did not want to move in this bad weather, let alone carry a weight around. Fortunately, I was not very heavy.  At times the path was very narrow. 
Once it was even less than one meter wide. It was extremely scary. While on one side there was a wall of rock, on the other side there was a
raging creek about twenty to thirty meters below. If the horse had taken even one wrong step, we would both have fallen down the abyss never to return

We managed to cross the creek at a shoal. It was difficult to force a creature acting on instinct to step into dangerously flowing water. But I somehow managed it.  
I landed at Bhagwan’s house in the middle of a domestic dispute between Vivek and Him. He told me He really had had enough of her. 
He said that Vivek irritated and tormented Him and that He had a toothache and wanted to drive His Rolls-Royce. 
He requested me to manage to get rid of the woman. “Buy her a ticket to England and ensure that she leaves immediately. 
I cannot tolerate her presence for one more second.”
I said I would do my best. When I returned to my house in the afternoon, I found a message from Him. 
Vivek had apologized and He wanted to give her another chance.  From this incident I learned several lessons. 
Firstly, that Bhagwan was a man with ordinary feelings. Secondly, that I must make sure that He was never cut off from the outside world due to any disaster. 
Third, even an enlightened one cannot get rid of a woman! The reality is that neither can a man can live with a woman, nor can he live without her.  
I allowed Him thereafter to simply be a man. I did not put Him on any pedestal."

PROMISE OF PARADISE by Satya Bharti Franklin 
Poona1 intimate story of Ma Satya(Sats) being poinsoed almost to death by Sheela!
Osho persuading Sheela to stay - she wanted to leave and was never interested in Meditation & Spirituality
Sheela milked $10,000 out of Satya's parents - pretending it as a "loan" (a common Ashram/Osho lie) for a condo -knowlingly conning and deceiving her own parents.
She NEVER got her money back and took years to face the truth! Page77 and Page78  

Osho Black Magic Paranoia 
Shortly before his death, Rajneesh suggested that one or more audience members at evening meetings were subjecting him to some form of evil magic. 
(now referred to as the White Robe Brotherhood) 

Abhay Vaidya. Who Killed Osho Chapter 10 Did Drug Overdose Kill Osho?  
In his final days Osho blames CIA of using “black magic” against him? 
In the very month that he died, Osho complained that he had heard “someone chanting a mantra, and it had disturbed the silence.” 
Shunyo writes about this episode in her memoirs: “Despite announcements asking whoever it was to cease, it continued. The chant began to cause pain in Osho’s stomach.” 
He said “it was being done deliberately” and blamed “the same people who had destroyed the Commune in the U.S.A.”
He later accused the C.I.A. of using black magic. Osho’s top sannyasins then took the help of a psychic to try and find “the person or persons” responsible for this. 
People were moved from their usual sitting areas in the Buddha Hall, all the electrical appliances were checked and 
a search was also conducted “for a machine of new invention that could maybe send out a death ray, or sound that was above the usual human hearing level.”4 
Nothing was found and Osho said the man responsible was sitting in the Buddha Hall during the evening meditation “in the fourth row.” 
Shunyo recalled: “That night we video-taped the fourth row of people and watched the film looking for a suspect.” 
Nothing was found and the search was dropped. Premgeet corroborated this incident and said the German group had undertaken this video recording secretly and 
some suspects were filmed closely. The film was watched carefully later but nothing could be established.  

Why did Osho complain of being harassed by “black magic” in is room at nite? 
For all their brilliance, ‘enlightened awakening’ and illustrious professional careers, none of the top sannyasins of the Osho Commune could explain what was the “knocking on the doors” in the middle of the night and the “black magic” that Osho complained of in the last months of his life. Osho complained of some “spirit” or some person disturbing his sleep. He complained of “knocking on the doors” in the middle of the night and of “black magic”. Was this the result of mental disorientation and hallucination caused by heavy medication which also weakened him day after day? According to Shunyo, in the last three months of his life, Amrito was looking after Osho full-time and she used to wake up Osho at 6 p.m. till she was his caretaker. Shunyo was called a few times by Osho to his room and he complained that
Someone was knocking on the doors in the middle of the night. He had previously complained to Nirvano that he had heard knocking on his door at 2 a.m. “She went around to everyone’s room in the house (Lao Tzu) to ask if we had been up and knocking on Osho’s door. Nobody had and the guards at the gate 
were not aware that anyone had entered the house. It happened many times since but the mystery was never solved.”3 

A little on the black magic in buddha hall
In the last days of Osho 's life, black magic mantras, were aimed at Osho and created a deep pain in Him. 
The mantras were aimed at opening Osho hara, the center of death.
According to shunyo, Osho told about the mantra aimed at him that it was coming from CIA and that they were using black magic. 
This information , can be read in Shunyo book also.
He also told that the 'man is in the 4th row' which was videotaped with no results. All electrical appliance were checked in searchof ultrasound devices,
who could create the deadly sound, but nothing was found, which implies that the sound was on the psychic level.
A psychic was used (is this Kavessha ?)to search for the who were the people doing it, but found nothing and put out from the hall the wrong people.
Investigation by our team, suggest that Kaveesha herself was under influence of other forces, which entered her atlantian master channelings.
The worst black magicians, the very masters, operate from the astral. Who does nor remember devadatta influence over krishnamurti 
at the moment when he was going to declare himself as vehicle of buddha ? 
our research up to now is pointing out to that direction for kaveesha also. no wonder 
her guidance of dheraj ended up with the protection ritual that was the very basis of the black magic in buddha hall. 
Osho I have NOTHING to Learn from [all of] You and was continually betrayed
Osho shows below his attitude of already knowing it all and no possibility of learning anything and pain that Osho was continually betrayed form 30 years:
Chapter #13 - Chapter title: Truth is not divisible - 18 March 1987 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium   
You say, "Let us reverse the question for once." 
You cannot reverse it even for once. You are asking now, "What have you learned being with us?" I have nothing to learn.
You are here only because of the fact that you have found a person who has nothing to learn -- and particularly from you, who are groping in darkness, 
in unconsciousness, who are almost on the boundary line of insanity -- any moment, just one step more and you are in a madhouse.
Neither from you, nor from anyone else.
I have learned much. One of the most significant things that I have learned is not to feel sad when you betray, not to feel sorry when you go astray -- in fact, 
not even to expect that you have to trust. The relationship between me and you has to be one-sided, only from your side, not from my side at all
Jesus was betrayed only once, by one disciple.
I have been betrayed continually for almost as much time as Jesus lived on the earth -- thirty-three years
So many people I have trusted so totally have betrayed me so easily. There was a moment they were ready to die for me and just some small thing... 
if I was not fulfilling their expectation, which I have never agreed to fulfill, their love changes into great hate. The same person who was ready to die for me is ready to kill me.
All Concepts [incl Enlightenment, Meditation etc] have to be dropped eventually!
Allan Watts on Nagarjuna's Middle Way (Madhyamika): What do you base your life on? Pull out all carpets! No concept you can trust!  
MiddleWayEmptiness Reality escapes ALL Concepts!  
Challenges us by rejection and avoidance of ALL metaphysical theories and concepts
The purpose of Nagarjuna’s analysis is to destroy vikalpa (“misconceptions”) and point the way toward the abandonment of all philosophical views (drishti).   
Ultimately "Enlightenment" & "Meditation" are also just nifty concepts to be let go of - scary I know - 
but for me Sannyas is also going INTO the "Scary and Challenging" and unplugging from the illusions and comfy denial and nostalgia! 
CheckOut: Passage to America  MP4List  
Osho FBI File 
Exoteric/Esoteric Group Dynamic
Great Challenge #9/ Question2  Talks given from 1970 to 1971  
This always happens: when I say something, I create two groups of people around me.
One group will be exoteric. They will organize, they will do many things concerned with society, with the world that is without; 
they will help preserve whatsoever I am saying. 
The other group [esoteric] will be more concerned with the inner world. Sooner or later the two groups are bound to come in conflict 
with one another because their emphasis is different. The inner group, the esoteric mind, is concerned with something 
quite different from the exoteric group. 
And, ultimately, the outer group will win, because they can work as a group. 
The esoteric ones cannot work as a group; they go on working as individuals. When one individual is lost, something is lost forever.
This happens with every teacher. Ultimately the outer group becomes more and more influential; it becomes an establishment. 
The first thing an establishment has to do is to kill its own esoteric part, because the esoteric group is always a disturbance

Because of "heresy," Christianity has been destroying all that is esoteric.
Puro Rajneesh Post Nov 29  
From here it is hard to be anything but so overwhelmingly grateful for the one who spent his entire life pointing towards this door to no-mind
And, in fact, it is THIS no-mind, this oceanic space of silence and love that is Osho, this very moment. 
Beautiful & Light Side of the Osho Neo-Sannyas Movement
I am grateful for the amazing adventure and meeting so many adventurous souls and friends and the beautiful side of the Neo-Sannyas Movement
Beautiful Poona1 Discource Video: Tao: The Golden Gate - Volume 1 - Discourse 2   
Evening Music Group - Most amazing Times in Poona1 (1975-1981) - "Glory to you" with Sw_Prem_Anubhava 
Most tribal people come together in the evening and
wholeheartedly sing, dance amd celebrate the life we have been given – a bit of heaven on earth….
We seem to have lost this to some extend …
This clip hopefully conveys some of that spirit (sorry for the poor audio from 1979)
Beautiful Movie about Osho's childhood and upbringing:
"Rebellious Flower(2016)" Trailer Netflix Amazon IMDB  OshoNews
My Favorite Meditation VIPASSANA - OshoOnVipassana  - 
Poona2 Meditation Schedule:
Full Sannyas Wiki Database (Music, Books, Sannyasins):
Example: 1980-03-21 Enlightenment Day Darshan ~ Ashram Music Group by Sw_Prem_Anubhava   
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Rajneesh the Rebel - Spreading Osho NOT Selling Osho 
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From Facebook:
Unless you go deeper, you will shift your projection from one to another. If there is no God, you will make me your God. And certainly I am not God.

And I am not omnipotent. I am just sitting in my chair, that's all. Omnipotent means I will need a chair in which the whole universe fits. And I am not omnipresent. I am not a peeping Tom to look into your bedroom. That's what God used to do, watching you even in your bathroom through the keyhole.
I am not omniscient either. I don't know what is going to happen next moment. I am simply human, just awake, just fully alert, conscious and responding to life moment to moment according to my awareness, my consciousness; just a pure mirror reflecting whatever comes in front of me. Don't project anything on me.

Osho, God is Dead, Page - 145... Namaste.